Heyy, alrite haven blogged since the day before my birthday! wanted to blog but just didnt seem to be able to type anything out. Same for today but had some thoughts i wanna joint down...

Woke up slightly later den usual today, was raining really heavily this morning and the weather was just perfect for sleeping. so i woke up and rushed to get ready. Got an sms early this morning and hope that person had a great day! and the test went well ya? Todays bus trip seem slightly longer than usual, the weather seem colder than usual, everyone in the morning seem extra groomy, the rain seem more saddening than other days. Weird morning i had, perhaps it's that of the perfect monday blues morning? Sitting in that bus stonning carried over alot of tots from the nite before, Guess it is kinda cool to be alone some times, it leaves u that space and time to just think of things that under normal day to day living u wldnt bother to think? Well just than a song plays and the line that sticks in my mind, linger on for the whole day, making you wonder what does it mean? Perhaps i know the ans, but why not someone tell mi? " And How Can I Stand here With You And Not be MoveD by You? will You Tell Me how cld it Be any better Than this? " .... it's ringing over and over again.

I wish to run away from this place at times, stress and work, school and play, temptations and sin, fun and enjoyment, love and kinship ... all these? do we need it? Man was made in God's image, and God Is Love? Doesnt that mean we're made in Love's Image? Thus it's impossible to be cold, impossible not to love? lOl .. what a tot! if a man wasnt able to love doesnt that mean he/she wasnt from that of God? now that is impossible rite? So how can i stand here and not be moved? Guess most of the times when we look into the mirror, the mirror gives us the reflection of our true self, but we often lie to ourselves what we see inside the mirror??

ARGH! leave me alone some times! i need my own life my own space my own time. who the **** do you think you are? friends are friends ... but friends are still humans! if you get all cranky! dont u think i wld? use that nutcase shell inside yr skull and think? im not yr anibody! stop treating me lyk somebody! sounds weird but ***k it!

Yesterday i did someting really bad! i was cursing at a old women for not giving my my food on time and giving me too little rice and fries. At that point in time i was fuming mad that it didnt strike me that she was just an old lady! sigh, how bad was i! but thinking of it i know how wrong i was! somewhere in the bible it writes " be slow to angerrr ? " .. yet i ...

sigh! Well, zhoujielun has a new song out! go try to find it, it's called " zhou jie lun - Qi Xi Liang (Orange Jasmine) " pretty nice! My rocking record of the week! and i finally can listen to music in my room, got my stero fixed up in my rooom! late nite show here i come!

So dat's abt for today, i cant seem to like put down stuff for my birthday and wad i did! well i'll tell another time ya? went dinner with da guys (dat includes mindy of cuz!) ! haven seen them in a while and it was good! but i spent a bomb of cuz! shrugs .. *pockets empty*

Kk .. shalom pple!

Joshua

(it's a cycle where i slip into eternal splendor of constant wonder)

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