I start work tmr!! bleah! im kinda unsure what i really gotta do actually? shall just go there being a blur block(as i always am), and hopefully figure things out. working with nelson so i guess it aint that bad? but i kinda wonder if he's taking A lvls or not! SO SLACK! well aniway, thanks for introducing me the job, after the job please do work hard ya! shrugs. Anyway was looking for my black formal pants today, and i came across some old clothes which i kinda grew out long time ago, haha! brought back some really stupid memories. I even found my Marist uniform. to think i wore it for a totally of wad? 4 years? well the same design of shirt not the same darn shirt! bleah! but as i was typing, i couldnt fit into it! haha, no wonder they called mi skinny last time! haha, remember how my friends are i always got into trouble for playing basketball in that uniform! And how often we would tuck out our shirts and lyk wear really baggy pants(mine wasnt that bad) and get farked by Dennis Koh! haha, freaking stupid! We got taught for the dumbest of reasons i tell you. Lyk wearing ankle socks? wearing shoes with RED stripes? or too much blue? Freak, itz really stupid things to get caugh for huh? haha, the times in secondary school are pretty and true memorable. To think half of my friends from secondary school are lyk mugging for A lvl, doing their preparation for Exams in poly! or for those whom got retained, trying to get their punk asses to year2 next year! Time really does pass pretty fast huh, almost 2 solid years gone since ive gotten outta secondary school! haha, i suddenly feel kinda old! -hair turns white- so seriously, treasure the moments you have now, cause u never know when you'll be looking back and laffing at em! :)

Guess everyone's gotta grow up! Had a pretty boring day today actually. erm, the highlight of the day ish erm, freak! NO highlight! haha, kiddin'! i basically woke up, put on my specs, went to my dinning room, walked to the toilet and went to the toliet to PANGSAI! gosh, and it felt super good! highlight of the day man! haha, okok dats kinda gross! i watched "Harold And Kumar : Go to White Castle " again! Downloaded the thing, but it's for self use! NO ilegal distribution! no reporting of me to the cops of i'll kill the person whom reported me! so aniway, freaking funny show, kinda senseless but really funny. but there is a morale after the show i guess, and if you wan something? you've gotta work hard and go for it? And not be scared and hold back? Haha, guess holding back and being scared are basically for losers! Losers in their life. haha, well at lest i know wad i am :P!! but fark it, watch the show! it's really darn funny! -grins- but dont ask me send mi! I DO NOT DO ILEGAL distributing of video taped movies in cinema! i repeat i DONT K! =p haha

hmm, ive got my new class list today, i only know like 3 people inside? personally know them that is? heard of the rest but dont really know them personally. Shrugs. hopefully it will be a fun class. if not it's gonna be plain torture to sit thru' 16weeks of it again. well shall pray for the best :)

think i blogged quite abit already, yet i feel i haven really wrote anything concrete. Feel i wrote shit above. often i think that a blog is something where u write down thoughts that you wanna share with people, people to understand how u think and gif feedback about it. A blog is a reflection of one's personality and one's feelings, one's thoughs and one's dreams. A written testimonial of one's sadness and one's joy, plus the person's struggles and happiness. haha, sounds rather complex to reach that kinda of stage, for if one is to really write all of that down, he/she will be dimming him/her-self vunerable, and open. Man were born to wear a mask, a mask to hide their weak side and show their strong side. Hide their pain in time of sadness. That mask is something which like a clothes, you must wear nice clothes to look good? but is that the case?? shld we wear a mask to hide your weakness? haha, it's hard to understand the deep inner working of a human mind. but isnt it harder to understand a deep inner feelings of a human being? and which is more important, what makes a person tick, or wad makes that person, a person? haha, to take off dis mask wld mean to stab a hole in my heart and open it to see what's inside. The sight wldnt be pretty :) it's really alrite if dat didnt make ani logic to whoever is reading it, cause often i dont understand what im writing also. Wish i didnt and wish i never will.

maybe i shld haf taken literature. or maybe i shld haf just studied harder and made it to JC, or maybe i shld just stop thinking of what cld haf been and think of what CAN BE! guess that would be my motivation for next term, to study hard and do much better for my test. Guess it is easy to aim for that top 5% but actually gettin down to doing it is a totally diff. matter all together huh? :)
haha, aniway those whom are studying for whatever examination, be it O lvl, a Lvl or just simple end of the year examination. God Bless for your preparation and examinations k? Never think negative when it comes to studying alrite? only makes things worst. Whatever the result may be give it to God's Hands and he'll guide you! study hard ya?

I'll turn in now, shall rest early for tmr's work! Or try to sleep .. :)

Nitess peepss

i often dream
dream of what
what could have been if
if i did have the courage to
to make it happen ...

PS : vanessa carlton's "white houses" is nice :)