Dec. 30, 2003 - 12:00 p.m.
[Joshua 1:9 - Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."] .................. This Verse means alot to me! in other version they use "be determined and confident. Do not be Afraid of Discouraged" .... people whom often feel low and bad about themselves (abit like me) .. dont! Cause no one is LOSER (u know who im talkin abt -winks-) .. no one is a outcast! no one is rejected or abandoned in God's Eyes! hehehe, For He is with you!
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wadssup babies!! =p
Hahaha, itz been exactly like 6 months since i updated my BLOG! check out the last entry man! hahahaha, i cant believe i actually didnt update it for so freaking long! Well, guess i've been too caught up with things that i shouldnt have been caught up with in the first place! Well, be thankful cause i finally found the time and mood to update my blog! so it's not all soo dead after all!
Guess Who's Back, From Outta Space! hahah =p
Alright, the Month of December has really been a great month for me. Had Church camp firstly, before that planning was really fun, and even after church camp the activities and happenings were all very cool and interesting. haha, Guess i totally look forward to every year's church camp, especially since this year i was involved in the planning, it made it even more exciting. But yet, it wasnt totally as good as i expected it to be. Alot of screw up here and there, the weather was totally crap. But one thing was really good, the fact that God's spirit was at the place, blessing the camp site, and even in all the fun we had, God's hand was there to lead us thru' it. The JE was totally Good, aside from the fact it was too much to handle for a day, half of the time me and the guys were sneaking outta the room to head back to our bunk to kun(sleep)!! haha, darn funny, i skipped the first sessino due to my stupid cold man! Had it on the first day when i came, wad a wet blanket! but thank God that it went away by the second day and i could enjoy the rest of the days with my Gay mates! Whooohoo! k im kididn abt the gay mates part :) .. but over the JE really rocked! guess i felt really far from God, ever since sch started that my yearning to get back and closer to him was greater den ever before! I thank God that he touched me that camp, ministered to me, and more important, to everyone whom was at the Camp!
Those whom went camp and read this. Praise God For He Is Good And Is has show his light and Glory! Amen :)
Plus Camp really got me back with my brothers in christ, Kinda misesd em, been soo busy with school before that, that i guess we kinda drifted apart! THankful to God That he kinda brought us back together. Hahaha, the crazee pictures we took during the bunk! haha, super obscene man! And the way we kept skipping 5 bx! Not to mention The Pinky4! shld check out our pink polo TeeS! shall upload that into my website once i get it re-done! :) We did heck alot of Crap! And i really n'joy it alot! hahaha, but guess all good things gotta come to an end rite? soo camp ended like few weeks back and i still kinda miss it! hahahaha~!
Well, after camp was filled with outtings! went out with the guys, mainly nelson and leonard lah! Had some stay over at nelson's uncle's hotel! was kinda fun, just that there was some conflicts btw the two, which bonded them closer! so no worries for dat! :) Looks like everything that happens seriously happens for a reason, and whatever the reason, the reason will always be that to benefit us, never to harm ...
haha, even after camp, there was alot of happenings, like xmas service and there was this youth rally! Our Church's Pretty on the ball i guess! but the Rally wasnt that great, but the worship was really good, and i saw pple going out to accept Christ as their Lord and Savior! it was really a pleasent thing to see! Amen :)
Plus im gonna be a CGL! to think i gave Erwin and Edwin soo much headache as a Cg member, and now im gonna handle a grp of people that might just be same as me last time! i shall pray for Patiences and that i'll be able to reach out to em! Haha, funny but im looking forward to being one! Guess i'll haf to give up alot of stuff in the process! But no matter what i'll hand on! knowing that it's God's will that im doing! i'll doing it passionately :) hehehhe
It's gonna be new year's eve tmr! so fast a year has gone by. And i really Look back at this year with alot of grief and joy! alot of things has happened with this year. Bad and good things, hope my new year comes with a new hope and a new joy of forgettin all these things! i place all my worries in God above!
haha, -interview- "So josh haf u tot of ani new year resolution??" -bleah-! i only haf afew major big ones! First on the list to Draw closer To God Plus Work towards being a Good CGL And a man after God's Heart! guess that's my every year's resolution! hahaha .. plus afew others :)
[afraid.of.losing.dis.feeling.][365.days.n.counting]
.... It's been a Year and the feeling still lingers! exactly a year and it still remains, ever growing stronger, ever making me feel weaker. Standing or sitting next to you, infront of you, yet knowing i'll never be able to be with you? Reality is painful, I live in dream, a dream of you. -lafs- and Wake up to the bitterness of the truth! That I've fallen fer you.... haha that's soo rip off! k it just came to me! not bad,i haf the poetic side of me! haha .. too bad no one will get it :)
Shall Sign off here! i'll keep this updated, this i promise! haha .. Peace out ya? happy new year! Haha .. Take care!
-Im.not.afraid.of.dying.but.i.am.afraid.of.losing.you-
