Sadly, we lost to tagawa by 56 points? Cant believe it too, well gotta face reality. We lost, but the main thing is we didnt lose to them, we lost to yourself! I lost to my team mates. Some fcukers in there just think the world of themselves, really they do! It isnt B boys any more k, it's Youth cup! the standard is much much MUCH higher! you can think u can take on everyone, u cant do 1 on 5, i try my best to play to my best but my team mates say my playing style sucks, it's wrong, im lousy, i cant pass correctly, i cant see the game correctly. Well perhaps i do have some areas i need to touch up, i agree im not the perfect point guard! but can u blame me? i am only human! The rest of the team make mistakes and they dont get signaled out. That big fcuker also makes mistakes but he doesnt get signaled out. He tries to do stuff, individually and no one scolds him, but when i try to create chances for my center and stuff, and it unfortunately doesnt go as well as planned, i get scolded! Well at lest he told me my weakness during the game, im happy abt that! things for me to work on, but well, im just not happy that there's my VERY OWN team matesunhappy with me, not happy with my play style, if they aint happy dont fake it and tell me, i can take criticism and i hope i get more so i can improve my game! no point bitching behind my back den give me a fucked up face and attitude during the court! We play as a team, we lose as a team, we understand one another as a team and more importantly everything we do makes us gel as a team! well unfortunately no one understands that as much as me! Of all the teams i played for this is the worst and most fucked up team ever! sighh, we've got two matches left and i think the coach has totally given up hope already, well i feel im gonna give up real soon, my teamates cant seem to give a fuck abit me, no one tries to lead, no one talks! i try my best, my best experience from the 2years of playing this competition, my experience from outside friendlies, my experience from IVP, im using it but it doesnt seem to have any effect on my temamtes? am i trying too hard, expecting too much? guess i am .. sighh! cant wait for this nitemare to be over and done with ... 2 more matches ...

Well, im just losing that passion for that sport i once loved so much, the drive to win .. perhaps im not the most talented player, but i know i work hard for myself, for my team ... i work hard or at lest i try! but .. sigh .. im just losing it ... guess that's why my brother gave up basketball .. he lost his passion too ....

Well aniway, dats's abt it ... guess my day was abit whacked yesterday! spent most of the time at home, and just went to heartland to eat branch with nelson. Oh nelson, dont think soo much okay? take one step at a time, know your brothers are here for you when you need em! And surely whatever you're facing .. you're gonna overcome it k? GoD BLess

[Blasting: Fuel - Falls On Me]