Irritable calmness
May. 30, 2004 - 9:02 p.m.

Well this life is gettin boring
Excitement gettin sucked out of it
Dullness infesting
calmness going

Fark cant take this .
>Spend a day at home studying
is that wrong?
Hate people keep telling me what's wrong what's right?
Do i not abide the laws? do i not break the rules?
It's hard to dedicate myself when you've lost that motivation
Everything has a price

I was given a brain for a reason
to blardy think!
well i guess i dont often do the right thing all the time
but i do the thing that i know i shld do
even if it's wrong!
i calculate my mistakes, make it and know how to resolve it
i arent gung-ho so fark off
Haven i given up alot already
i dont wanna follow what you do
i dont have your life style
i need my time
i need my life

Look carefully at me
Look closely into my eyes
notice that there's emptiness inside, hidden behind the blackness and cover of my eye
Look closer into it, see the pain and torment i face day in day out
Look, but you dont see cause what you notice is what's outside
What i project
i hate pple to worry for me
im not worth worrying about

farking look down on me
i dont care
farking hate me
cant gif a shit
I am myself
different from the rest of this world
i was made different
I thank God i am Different!

What's this Life For?
I dont hate it
Neither do i look down on it
I Wonder about it
Where is it heading

live life to the fullest?
define fullest?
it could be full of shit and still be full!

Hard to understand huh?
Well screw understanding and screw reasoning
Some times life is just about feeling it
It arent about understanding cause you'll take a lifetime and not understand everything

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