I really cant think of much to write here? Guess my BLOGGING skills are gettin worst, or perhaps they were never even good to start with. I Guess i had one really bad day? It started off bad, didnt really seem to become bad but ended up on a bad note. Erm, shall rephase tat, it was just farked up. Whee =>

It started off with my waking up late. And i didnt feel like waking up. Had this bad feeling lingering over me. Felt so bad .. no words can explainnn. And no one could understand ...

Aniway, den i went to school and guess i slacked soo much in school. But it was alright. Kinda enjoyed? Yet ... i didn't ... .O.G.K.W.

Dan Came MY IVP! Oh fuck tat, totally screwed up lah! lost 60 points to NUS. Not the first time i lost soo many points but im just not happy with everything that happened in the process. What's the point of having a team when team doesnt back you up. What the Point of having a coach when he doesnt seem to understand the players. Alright we did play like fuck, turnovers, didnt play well, was kinda nervous, didnt stand and do wad we were suppose to do? Ya so! At lest build us up. Losing doesnt mean anithing, but losing know that the team is behind u is smth! Tat's wad team sports is about. To know that when u do something, no matter good or bad, you have the other 11 players and coach behind you saying "relax and try again" .. "its okay" .. "This is wad you did wrong ..."! 1 person can never take on 5, even if he can, he needs support of the other 4 and the whole team. Dat's the greatest "weapon" in a match! Knowing that itz 11 people playing mentally and physically. Guess everyone was outclassed by the other team, out muscled, perhaps even out skilled! Everyone was nervous for this is the first time. Lost our Captain early, i tried to lead! but guess im not the greatest of leader! But i tried, but the team doesnt respond! it's hard too. I see things all from my point of view. Guess i might be wrong too, but at lest i know tat my point of view has that certain truth. I hate it when things like this happen! Morale of Everyone just goes Sky diving! FUCKING HATE IT!

Sigh, made me think soo much. Guess in some areas i just cant live up to the mark, the standard. Never will no matter how u try. Always was told to "hold on", "keep on try" but i seriously feel like letting go? but i know i cant. Cause im not the sort. I'll always fight till i cant. Dats me and shall always be. Guess it doesnt apply for just basketball ... even in other areas of my life. I Live on Passion. Dats why i'll never give up until the passion dies. so fuck me!

Alright, see today is fucked up. I wonder why i even typed this. hope no one sees it. I can just erase it and not enter but im too fucking stupid to do so. Joshua new law - Fucking prick = Me !!Ya ... Soo Hope tat everyone else had a GREAT day today! At lest i know that everyone is enjoying themselves. Dat does bring a slight smile to me!

[as.long.as.you.smile.all.the.time]

Take Care

Joshua

Listening to: Good Charlotte - Hold On

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