My feelings over flow into a well of deceit
Where my love hides in the shadows
And my Real turns into fake
Fading away from self
Falling from truth

Smiling at pain
Trying in Vain
Sighing…

Knowing the unhappenin’
Forget it all,
Screaming in my face
Pain unable to be foretold

Leave it alone,
Let it go,
To my grave will I be dumbfounded
My last breathe will I be wondering??
Cause I will never know,
The answer …

-Written at 0930 on 22/7-

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I'm becoming a doubtful lil boi.

Standing in the crowds, a lil boy looks at the adults and wondering why do they stand so tall, soo majesty, so commanding with the autority to make you feel shy around them. He gazes at them and tremble in fear. He stares and wonder will he'll ever be able to measure up to capablity, to their "size", their ability. They seem to be able to move mountains with their built while a small boy standing down there finds it hard to even move his study table. More often than not we are that small boy standing in the crowd, looking up at people and fearing them, wondering why they stand so tall and make us tremble in fear and the feeling of being inferior just shrinks u even more. Slow he moves him already trembling hands wipes away his sweating forehead, and those fear-stucked eyes stares once again all soo carefully at those people. "they aint soo tall" he mumbles to himself! And slowly realises they aint soo scary too. They aint soo good, and more important he isnt soo inferior.

Never let Age or size deter yourself and your aim. Never let others intimidate you, never let them make you feel small(unless u already are). Stop looking up at them, start looking forward. And if you do slowly everyone will turn into your " small kid size ", slowly you'll realise that everyone is actually a small kid. slowly you'll realise that you are that good.

Im really no sure where i read this but it went smth like that. Not Exactly the exactly words and perhaps the exact meaning. Haha, i hope it's understandable. Well it's more like my kinda thinking and my interpretation of it.

I've really had a really fast week soo far! today was really fun where i finished at 1something cause my teacher just released us really early. We had lab lesson and we finished up our experiment really early, so we decided to bargain with the teacher to let us off early and we did it! went to play pool with malcolm after that! we were complete losers! malcolm being soo smart, stopped at lvl 5 of lucky plaza! for those whom are familar with lucky plaza, LVL 5 are suppose to be all offices and "medical specialist" lvl? so not wanting to paisey ourselves we just walked outta the lift trying to pass off as science students coming here for attachment! lOl! And we got LOST in that area cause it was soo tricky to find the stairway and lift! we walked around(literally around) like idiots for a whole 10 minutes befor we found the staircase to the 6th floor! *note to self! pool at 6th floor!* haha, but pool today was fruitful, had fun and felt like i really played to my best! Malcolms really kinda fun to play pool with cause he's soo blardie tyco! So after that i came home and met nelson to play abit of basketball! He was trying to train for his NAFA for his army!alrite jiayou k bro! u can get silver if not GOld 1 :), so he came over to slack at my place, play CM LA! forever doing that! hehe, aniway had loads of fun dude! come more often k ! I show u my ass next time :P wahahha

So sighh, dat was my day! Pretty lazy to blog abt other days! think todays racal harmony day? well not very sure myself! i just kinda feel that racial harmony day is really just a front to show that dere is racial harmony in singapore! but some how i feel that racial harmony can never be established unless pple rid themselves of their mindset of race and religion and understand that we're one big family of singapore? haha .. on my personal notice is that i hardly see malays sitting with chinese and so and so forth! they still just commmune among themselves .. haha! oh well just a note i observed!

gotta go .. tired and im shutting down already

NItes pple!

Ps: king arthuer is kinda nice! nice sex scene :P

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